This film was born out of desperation\u2014the creative need to make another. I thought my next film would be the sequel to my last. I spent years developing it: writing, rewriting, making notes on how I\u2019d shoot it, creating look books for characters, locations, and themes. It even had a pre-buy from a notable streamer. But that wasn\u2019t enough to make it happen. The project ran into the usual obstacles: casting, scheduling, financing\u2014and some not-so-typical ones. A pandemic. A war. I felt like I was dying inside. Watching movies, one of my greatest pleasures, became difficult\u2014a reminder of my inability to create.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I started watching motovlogs. The first-person point of view felt both peaceful and kinetic, a juxtaposition that reminded me of my childhood\u2014and of the motorcycle my dad left me as a posthumous gift. I bought a motorcycle\u2014my first in over 40 years\u2014and a GoPro. I thought maybe I could combine motovlogging with my love of horror and the supernatural. I embarked on the journey, knowing that it too could fall by the wayside. But the act of creating something\u2014without being tied to funding\u2014felt more meaningful than whatever fate awaited it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I wrote six motovlog episodes, each inspired by one of my films. I still needed an actor, though, so I put on my director\u2019s cap and turned the lens inward. Aside from my mom, I\u2019m the only character here\u2014a sad-sack version of myself. I made a film about dying, acceptance, and the need to move on. But it\u2019s also a film about hope and perseverance. I suspect that, like most films, this one too may fall into obscurity. But my yearning to create is bigger than my need for it to be seen. It always has been. My hope is that it inspires others to create, even in the face of uncertainty\u2014to embrace personal storytelling, even if that means putting your vulnerability on display.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 A.D. CALVO<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00a9 2024 Goodnight Film LLC<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" This film was born out of desperation\u2014the creative need to make another. I thought my next film would be the sequel to my last. I spent years developing it: writing, rewriting, making notes on how I\u2019d shoot it, creating look books for characters, locations, and themes. It even had a pre-buy from a notable streamer. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":4,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-18","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"yoast_head":"\n